One thing I’ve found is that I have kind of a fear of repetition. Usually this manifests at work if I’m in a job that’s repetitive. I have this kind of out of body experience where it’s almost like I wonder how long I’ve been there and how many times I’ve done the thing.
And in college I always tried to sit in a random seat for lectures. Any time I felt I sat in the same seat more than once I would start to feel anxious.
I’ve somehow been able to cope exercising, not sure how since I take a few laps around my block when it’s still dark out. I think it might be that I set a timer? I’m not sure, but there are times when I get that anxiety when I repetitive exercises.
I’ve been trying to research online for ways of coping, but I’m not finding much. The link I posted seems to be just an article on phobias in general, and “dittophobia” sounds like something someone just made up.
I don’t know if others are like this, but I NEED repetition AND novelty.
I’m very predictable day to day, and I like it that way. By sticking to the routine, I don’t have to spend brain energy on basic things like What’s for lunch today? (On Monday, it’s tacos.)
That being said, my favorite of anything is the one I’ve never tried before, or haven’t had in the longest time.
I don’t really understand it, because it seems very contradictory to me. I LOVE novelty and variety, but at the same time, I find repetition and routine comforting, and I’ll be mentally uncomfortable all day if the taco place happens to be closed on a Monday afternoon.