I’m majoring in CS related-field, and I used to have tons of passion for it and underlying tech, and worked as full stack dev, but my mind was very different in a good way (better at logical/cognitive demanding tasks, creative, productive, etc). Things happened, and I just can’t stand living in society, experiencing all this materialistic world and feeling sick about it. I’m truly traumatized and I’ve been trying all available means to improve (so I’m not asking what rule 3 is against)… I can’t feel any passion for what I used to do… The meanings I gave for my life and hope are away. I don’t care anymore about digital world, industrialization, I just can’t. So my performance has suffered due to all this.
So, it can sound funny to read this, but I am considering living in a farm I have access to and do my own farming to eat, artesian well for water, constructing just a little home to live… I don’t exactly care about electricity. I would probably be happier just by burning some stuff to have light at night if needed and looking at the stars all alone until death.
What do you all think about this?
What you propose is unfortunately just not realistic, it takes way more work and knowledge than you think to be self-sufficient and it’s almost certainly not possible without a rather sizable group of people helping each other out.
I would instead suggest finding a place to live where there’s a sense of community, where amenities and the workplace is within walking/biking distance and you have access to “quaintness” for lack of a better term. Basically the more it looks/feels like a medieval place the better, such places are viscerally enjoyable to be in. Doesn’t have to be rural at all.
A good shorthand indicator of places where you will most likely start enjoying life again is a lack of cars, it’s not necessary but it tends to imply these human-centric features.
It’s much easier to be a recluse in a city of 20 million than a village of 2000, ironically enough.
Exactly, and when you do choose to interact with others there’s an effectively infinite amount of communities to pick from, whereas in a small town you’re lucky to have a grocery store sometimes…