• Asafum@lemmy.world
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    1 year ago

    “if I’m at a point in which I think I’ve got nothing to lose, then why not take a wild risk to try to get to a better place?”

    The problem I have with that is I know I can make things way worse rather than better by taking risks so I end up stuck where I am. I took a lesser risk a few years ago and thankfully only moved laterally, nothing really improved but at least I didn’t make it worse.

    I just need a “fuck it” attitude, but that’s never been in my character. I’m more of a “worry about everything” person because “luck” is never on my side, I need to MAKE things happen or they never work out… If I don’t have control over it, it fails. I really envy people that just seem to float through life, having everything work out as they wanted lol

    As far as the suicide goes, I’m basically “not allowed” to. I’m thankful that I have family that care about me and would be crushed if anything happened to me. Plus I know I’ll have to take care of my older brother when my parents are gone, so no matter how much I don’t want to be here, I have to be.

    As far as the cosmos goes, I’m one that tends to believe what we have is all we have, there is no “again.”

    • The Snark Urge@lemmy.worldOP
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      1 year ago

      To paraphrase Neal Stephenson, you come from “a long line of stupendous badasses”. Why not take a flying fuck at life?

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      1 year ago

      If you could make things worse, then you haven’t hit the point where you have nothing left to lose. And if you still have something left to lose, then you’re relatively blessed. Mental illness notwithstanding, anybody who is reading this has a pretty decent lot on life given that they have access to internet and a device to browse here, plus some amount of leisure time. Those data points alone put you in a better living situation than probably more than half of the world population.

      I can’t speak to your exact situation, but I’m optimistic that you’ll find yourself in a happier place within a few years. You seem like a thoughtful and caring person, and you’re right that that’s not all it takes, but it’s enough to get started with. When I get anxious, I envision a simple flowchart:
      Can I do something about this situation to improve it?
      If no, then don’t worry about it and just ride it out the best you can. Worrying is wasted time and energy here.
      If yes, then do that thing. Try. If you failed to improve it, at least you tried. And you’ll wake up tomorrow and try some more. But don’t delay the trying by spending time and energy on worrying. Worrying is wasted time and energy here.

      Both result in the conclusion that worrying is an illogical step that you should just go ahead and skip. And that’s how you can ease your way into a “fuck it” attitude!

      My other lifehack mentality is to figure out how much more time and effort it would take to get an A+ result versus a B result. If it’s a significant difference for a pretty minor improvement, I say fuck it and move on. Beef Wellington is really good, and I’m glad I’ve taken the time to make it a few times in my life, but burgers are really good too and much much easier to make.

      I hope this was helpful to you in some way. Rock on, my dude!