Except…
I never did.
I’m in my early sixties now and very little has changed. I still find men and women attractive, men more so than women.
Being told “you’ll grow out of it” is a hope, a fear, that you’ll learn the “error of your ways” and become “true”.
Except truth ending up being turned upside down, and what I was told was true turned out to be the lie.
Religious people lie. They make up stuff to support their beliefs to the detriment of others.
Right now people equate being gay with paedophiles - except the vast majority I hear about… are priests?!?
If you watch something gay when you’re young, you’ll become gay yourself. I saw nothing gay when I was young, yet here I am.
You know all this takes its toll on you, you end up very tired of the struggle to keep going.
It’s just… Exhausting.
Every year I go farther to the left, and become more educated on queer stuff.
I doubt I will ever “gow out of it.” I’m a married lesbian. My wife and I want to grow old together.
I wish you peace and happiness, whatever that means to you.
And even if you do “grow out of it,” so what? Why do we need to get everything right the first time? We can give ourselves the chance to explore and move on with our lives if something isn’t for us.
I find the world a harsh place to live in without being gay. Can only imagine what it must be like for you… I am sorry. :(
I remember thinking the world to be harsh place long before I figured out I’m gay. I didn’t want children and got told, “oh you’ll change your mind”. I never did.
