“Feel the fear and do it anyway” I think that is in some movie but it’s what I tell myself.

One thing I’ve learned from transitioning is that as self concious as we are, most people are too busy with their own stuff and thoughts to even notice I’m wearing a wig and less then average make-up or indeed read my pronoun badge. It’s fun when I’m definitely passing and someone apologises for assuming I’m female when they hear my voice. It’s a bag of emotional stuff I carry around and there’s fear associated with it, but I can’t actually fail at being trans as much as other trans people try and make me feel like I am at times. I’d think I’d like to be able to pass effortlessly sometimes, but most of the time, I just make sure I’m being authentic to myself. What other people think of me is not really any of my business anyway.

Everything takes practise and we should aim for progress not perfection.